The Audition Process

I have not auditioned for a show in a good long while. I have not done an actual show in over a year, other than a replacement/understudy gig about 9 months ago. I have not been in the mood, and have really enjoyed all of the free time not doing a show, has afforded me. Over this past year of sloth, something has changed for me. I no longer feel it is necessary to audition for things I want. I am not crazy, not snobby. It's not as if I feel auditions are beneath me, but I feel that I do not necessarily excel in this capacity. There must be other ways of getting work. I don't mean that I will ride coattails and mooch off of other's fortunate events, but I have this sense that things will come to me another way, and that there are other avenues to pursue. I have not yet determined what those routes may be, but I know they exist. At any rate, I have two auditions coming up in the next week, and I am not sure how I feel about them. I would love to get working, but this time off has really opened my eyes about how much my down time means to me. In addition, it is film that I want to do, so should I be using my time and efforts to audition/work in the theatre? Of course that is where it all started out, and I love it, but right now, I want film to be my focus. I guess this could be considered an early mid-life crisis, or a late quarter-life crisis. I feel like I am stuck in limbo. I am not unhappy, but don't know how to move forward in my acting career (or lack there-of). Do I cut out theatre completely, and focus solely on film/television? Do I wait it out, hoping that something will fall in my lap? Having just turned 30, I feel that time is slipping away. One reassuring note, is that James Denton (Mike the plumber on Desperate Housewives) stated that he really got started right around my current age. So there is hope, but how to jump start the process? In addition, he was a former company member of the Griffin Theatre (a place I have worked with for several years, and was a company member for a short time). Finally, it seems hard for me to say no to any theatre auditions or offers. I don't want to create the idea that "this guy won't audition and won't accept roles, so we cannot count on him, and he should not be considered for future shows." Whether this would really happen is probably doubtful, but that little voice of insecurity always pipes up to put in his two cents worth, "Don't burn bridges, and don't piss people off." Wise words of course, but will they serve me in my current mindset?