S&T

Stands for sick and tired.

Read the post prior to this, and all will be validated.

I took the day off today. I called in, and my boss sounded pissed. I wasn't sick. I didn't tell him I was sick. I told him I was tired; and for the love of God; I was. I went to sleep last night at about 9:30, and ended up waking @ 10:30 this morning; with a brief interruption to call to my boss. Apparently, this is what my mind and body needed. 13 hours of sleep. Yes, it was needed.

The other half said I am burning the candle on both ends. I guess he's right. I'm killing myself. I'm working my 40 hour work week, and then putting in an average of 24 hours over the weekend on the film shoot. What would I rather be doing? Of course, the film, but I'm not being paid in that; not in cash that is. I'm getting good working knowledge of stuff, feeding my soul creatively, and establishing valuable contacts for future projects. My day job is challenging, pays the bills (sort of) and keeps my mind sharp. I am, after all learning about real estate. I have no prior knowledge of that.

The point of this blog is to do some serious complaining. Yes, I'm aware that I may have bitten off more than I could chew w/ this film crew work. Live and learn. That's what I told my boss this morning.

I am soooo sick and tired of bosses; from almost any company I've ever worked for; questioning my calling in. I have written on this before; and have made it known that I have flaked on work days before. I may not have been technically "sick", but I generally know when my mind and body need a break. I've been in this body for 32 years. I think I have a pretty good f***ing idea of what it needs and when that need must be fulfilled. What irks me, is that I then take a day that I should be relaxing; and spend a good majority wondering if my co-workers or superiors are talking about me, how my work will be piled up when I return... Whatever it may be. I'm thinking about work when I was meant to spend the day thinking about my own well-being. For anyone to question me; that just beats all in my book.

To all future and current superiors; lay off the guilt trip. I know you have a business you want to run, but by God, when your workers say they need a day off; then they probably do. Even if they're not coughing blood; or shooting shit out of their asses for a good 20 minutes; 10 times day, doesn't mean they don't need a chance to recharge. That is all.