C'mon, Hit Me While I'm Down

So, I've accepted the fact that my short lived job @ my former employer was due to the fact that they were "unsure of what they wanted out of an assistant". I've moved on. I'm still a bit shocked, and perhaps a bit angry, but I've accepted this. So, after a nice morning/afternoon out w/ friends, I've returned home (at least for the next month), the other half went out for a walk, and I sat down w/ the computer to start the job search...again. What should I find, but an ad dated Thursday, July 31st (one day after I was fired), for the position I had just been booted from (no prepositions should end sentences). For being uncertain about what they wanted, they sure figured it out quick, and were very clear in their ad as well. So, what it comes down to, is that I was lied to. That's what irks me. If they hated me as a person, or as a worker, or thought I stunk like shit, then fine. Tell me that. Be honest. How difficult is that? This whole thing makes me feel even shittier than if they had been honest that they didn't think I was doing the work (which I believe I was). Frankly, seeing this ad immediately put one thought into my head. I GIVE UP. There. I've said it. I don't know what I'll do if I shut down, and no one should worry about me committing suicide or anything that drastic, but falling off the world and into history...perhaps becoming a bum (might not have much choice w/in a month) would be the route to go. At least I'm in a warm environment. I can't stand much more BS. Please people, be honest. It'll make you live longer, both in this life (less stress from your lying) and in your next life, cuz you'll have good karma.

I'm so filled w/ frustration right now; I don't know really how to handle it.

I'm :::this::: close to replying to the ad; and, without being a jerk, just informing them that honesty is the best policy. I'm sure I'd be hurt by the truth; whatever it may be, but I will certainly be a lot less humiliated. My life fucking blows right now.