Anyone know a good therapist?

I went back to my friend's house for the weekend; my "Rancho Relaxo" of a previous entry. Her daughters are both in their early teens, and are cheerleaders for the football team @ their high school. Well, my friend took them to one of their pre season games, and I tagged along (we were getting ice cream after). As we approached the bleachers, filled w/ parents and jock kids and their bitchy young teen girlfriends, I began to feel a bit apprehensive. Could it be that I was suddenly experiencing the feelings I thought I had left behind so many years ago? Yup! I am sure it is no surprise that I was tortured back in my high school years. I was called a nerd, and from then on I became a "fag". True, I was one, but was still so unsure and not quite aware of who I was to become (welcome to high school right?). Denial. I even dated a girl for 2 years, but that did not stop the teasing. Not that a cover was my reasoning. I did care for her. Perhaps there was some subconscious covering up. Anyway, it was a tough 4 years, and being taunted for that long and at such a delicate age, really took its toll. I guess my present day reactions have to do w/ what frame of mind I am in by the day, or what I had to eat 2 hours ago. Who knows? Well, this weekend, I ran into some old friends called insecurity and fear. How sad was this? I am at least 13 years older than these punks, and I am sure they could have cared less that I was in their presence. Luckily, we did not stay long, so I was able to stash away these feelings for a later review. I guess it is not only this situation, but many that I face each day. If I am out and about, and I have to pass by a group of people, as they stand on the side of the street, I will have a moment of fear and I can literally feel my head lower...only slightly. I am waiting for something to be muttered under their breath. How f***ed up is this? I am over 30, and I am still dealing w/ insecurities that came about when I was in high school. To the bullies of LHS...congrats, apparently you did what you set out to do. But I guess I have the last laugh, cuz chances are I am doing much better in my life, including emotionally. It is only every now and then that I recall the demons that haunted me each day. I guess they are a part of me, so I have to acknowledge them and pay tribute to them, cuz they formed me into who I am today. Each day brings a new challenge, it just sucks that some of the old hurdles still dig and itch away @ your innards. I guess you just can't let 'em. Easier said than done.