I'm a Bad Friend

Not always, but lately, I have been seeing my shortcomings quite clearly. I can be a good listener, and then there are other times that I pull that lame, "I have something to say, so I will wait on them to be done" stunt. Not always, but sometimes. I don't remember birthdays. I am not good or timely about major events; child birth, weddings, etc. If you ever get a gift/card celebrating your monumental day, it will be late, and sometimes obscenely so. This is of course if it ever gets sent out to begin with. I read emails, and tell myself that I will reply later. A week later, I will see it in my inbox, w/ no little arrow telling me that I replied. Meanwhile, any friends that may have a super sensitive brain like me, are wondering what they did to deserve this brush off. I sometimes wonder if I should look into therapy about these things. The only good thing about being "bad" friend, is that I am finally putting myself first. I guess that is the way it goes, but I still feel bad, when I blow someone off, even though most of them could probably care less. If you are a friend reading this, I am sorry if I ever made you feel bad, or did not remember/commemorate a major turning point in your life. I can say this, and feel some guilt, but not complete guilt...I am a very selfish person. There, I said it. Let past and future friends/acquaintances beware. Smelly selfish, right here.