Complete & Total Weirdness...

I feel strange today.

I got a rejection letter from one of the agencies I sent my h/r to. I'm not bad at rejection, but the "form" letter is kind of irritating. I understand these folks are busy, but when the form letter says I will not be taken on by them, for one of two reasons; one being that my resume shows I don't have enough experience, that kind of irks me. The other reason is that they have too many folks like me already on their books. I also got a reply from another, on the self addressed stamped postcard I provided, simply stating "Thank You". So, what does that mean? We'll get back to you? We acknowledge your submission? I don't know.

The other half and I did nothing for Valentine's Day. He sent me an e-card and brought home a rose, but we ended up staying in and watching American Idol. I don't necessarily get all excited by this holiday, but I guess I want to do something. I don't know. I feel strange today.

We got a small package yesterday from my mom; for Valentine's. Lots of cookies, some candy and some other small gifties. She also found several photos from various points of time, many of my biological father's side of the family. It's nice to have these.

I still haven't talked to my dad since he had his surgery, but I did send out a package the other day, with a get well card, and several of my various headshots from the past 5 years. I'll call him in a few days to confirm that he received it and to see how he is doing.

Blah, blah, blah.

I've done no work on my script. I'm waiting on my mentor's suggestions before I continue with another rewrite. I also wanted to give myself some distance for a bit of time.

Where does the time go? It seems that the past couple of weeks have flown by! I don't know if I'm wishing they would, so it would get warmer, but then again, the faster it goes, the sooner I need to get myself a job. Unemployment won't last forever! I have been applying left and right, but seemingly no one is interested in me. Can't I just win the damn lottery? Then I won't have to worry about anything! Is that really asking too much? I mean, c'mon!

I still have a trip back home, in the back of my head. I'm not sure if it will happen, but we are planning to return in July. The other half refuses to go back to my home when it's cold. Can't say I blame him. My mother told me they got 2 feet of snow last week. I'll wait til it's warm, thank you very much.

We showed The Descent to friends Lauren and Steve, Sunday night. They both screamed like little girls. It was funny! I was still able to get worked up, even though this was my third time. I was concentrating so hard on things I may have missed before, that I got sidetracked from what was on the screen. This allowed me to get scared by the "boo" moments I was already aware of. Hey, try it sometime, it really works!

I have an audition tomorrow night; for the new Griffin show. They've been around 15 + years, and this will be their first musical. It's no secret that I've done plenty of musicals in my day, but it's been about 9 years since I did my last one. Was it The Music Man? Good heavens! It's a brand new musical called Sleeping Ugly. I did the children's show version for the Griffin previously, but my character of Mrs. Marmalaude will not be returning for this new incarnation. The last musical I auditioned for was Company @ Porchlight. I sucked, and it's no wonder I got no further than that initial try. I do so love to sing, even though I know my voice isn't all that great. I've got a pretty good range, but not the nicest, smoothest tones to hear. If it's a character song, that's got some speak-singing, I'm all set. We'll see how it goes tomorrow. I'm also worried about committing to something again, since I've had so much down time. I don't want to be weirded out by the adjustment to a "schedule". I've chosen a piece I've auditioned with before, and it's pretty basic, not that difficult. But, it does have a couple of mid to high range notes, so hopefully that will be to my advantage. Of course, it's been about 3-4 years since I sang in public; at a Griffin Theatre benefit. Oy.

That's all for now. I'm kind of bummed, cuz I posted about 8 entries on Friday with fun fotos and other junk, and have gotten no comments. So, to my avid readers of 0, please recognize my weird, needy state of mind, and help me out by sending some comments my way. How pathetic is that?