Have I Mentioned...

that I'm in a very weird place right now? In every aspect of my life. Professionally, financially, emotionally, mentally; and no surprise physically (read, I'm a fat-ass). I told the other half a few days ago that I'm feeling inklings of depression. Don't get me wrong, I have never been diagnosed; or taken meds for such a condition (BDS...some folks will get that...wait I don't have any readers). I'm very down; and I'm sure I'm the only one who can tell. The last time I felt like this, I was back in Minneapolis, struggling w/ finances and completely uncertain of a direction in life. I was also working a horrible day job. Hmmm...seems to be some similarities to my stance now; aside from locale. The only better thing about those days; was how thin I was...Wait, I was eating once a day cuz that was all I could afford; don't want to return to that. Although a little weight loss would be okay. I'm rambling. Good times. I am trying to remain open and positive about all that has happened. I believe it is time to shake things up again. I guess that's what I did when I left Minneapolis. Moved to Chicagoland on my own; w/ no connections (that I knew of at the time). At least now I've got a better sense of who I am, and I've got the other half for support. I don't find myself falling into the same dread spiral I felt so many years ago in the Twin Cities; which is a good thing; but I do have some traces of "what the f*** is going on in my life?" Some other time, I should recount my time there...perhaps I already have. Just as I do w/ friends and family, I fear I repeat myself a great deal here in the blogosphere. I've become one of those people who constantly ask, "have I told you this already?"