Welcome One and All!

Are you scared yet? Well, you probably should be. I'm having another one of my irrational hissy fits. Therapy? You'd think so, but that would require more than I'm willing to give. Between the clothes I got rid of before we left Chicago, and the clothes I currently have to reckon with...dressy ones that is...for my long awaited first day of work, which most no longer fit appropriately, well, cuz I lost some weight, which is great, but now I can't tuck in a shirt without having about 3-4 inches of fabric overflowing in the belt...which, btw, I can't find my black belt, which needs to be replaced anyway, cuz it's ancient and had to be altered to fit my smaller waistline, well, cuz I don't have extra cash to be buying "accessories"...even though they are desperately needed. I just spent the last 45 minutes going through almost everything I could conjure, only to be left with not much of anything. No matter what I wear tomorrow, I'm gonna look like a stooge. I'm brought back to my days of high school, where for several years I didn't wear the coolest of clothes. Imagine that, a nerdy fag wannabe who didn't style w/ the cool kids. I hate this feeling, and to be whipped back into this era when I am at my lowest of self esteems, probably not a good thing. Yes folks, I have image problems and anger management problems. What does that add up to? Don't think I'm ready to take on that just yet...well, cuz I haven't found my outfit for tomorrow. The nicer clothes I do have, have seen better days. I'll just have to wait until my first paycheck to go get some new duds...but that'll have to wait until I pay back some family members, the other half pays back some of his family and friends, oh, and we get our bills up to date and oh yes, pay all of the other burdens currently hanging over my head, and don't forget about ALL of our belongings still in storage in AZ of all places...Whoever would have moved there. Yeah, right.

ISSUES? You bet there are. And now I've got a job and can't be happy about that cuz I'm neurotic, bordering on psychotic. Wish me luck tomorrow!